sea of quandary

sea of quandary


Why do we always lie to ourselves?

The way the sunlight glances on your shoulders.

Your hair shimmers in the shadows of the trees.

Is nothing pure?

Is everyone selfish?

Can we escape solitude if we build a draw bridge that is controlled by discernment?

We stand in a sea of quandary. Pulled in two directions.

Good to evil as nice is to bad.

why do we live in a world deep rooted in sad.

the cold, cold steel pierces your brow.

sweat beads and the choice is now.

twist, turn, laugh and dance.

leave nothing to chance.

eyes filled with slumber, you awaken to the best.

Your soul beats, can it find rest?

Do I Please you God?

This is a FLASHBACK moment for all of you Friday Night FIRE people…

Do I Please you God?

Several months ago at Friday night prayer night, I was sitting in the back of the large dark room that was dimly lit by candles, soft lamps and a black light. The worship music was playing and I sat gazing across the room watching all of God’s children worshiping their savior. There were the floor layers that were sprawled out, the pacers moving and weaving and the worshipers with their arms stretched all in unison of the goal to get a touch from the Lord. At that moment I was overtaken by a wave of the Holy Spirit as I turned my head toward the ceiling I asked God a question as tears welled up in my eyes. “Does this please you God?” My wife and I have been doing a prayer night once a week for the last two and a half years, and it had just occurred to me that I had never asked God that question. I asked him again, “Does this please you God?” As I asked that question for the second time I realized, I needed validation from my Father. As Christians it’s ingrained into our brains that praying and reading your bible is good and pleasing to God. But at that moment I wanted to hear my Father say it. I need him to tell me. Then my heavenly dad spoke, “Your human understanding can not comprehend how much it means to me that you choose me. You choose me on a Friday night. I see how busy you are at work all week. I understand that you are tired and just want to relax, there are thousands of other things you could be doing right now. But you choose me. You’ll never know or be able to understand how much it means to me. How pleasing this is to me. Every time you choose me over the things of this world. Thank you for choosing me.”

I realized that night all I want to do is please my God. If it doesn’t please my Father than I don’t want to do it. I want you to be proud of me Jesus. When I get to heaven and stand before you I want you to be so proud of me. When you say those words, “Good and faithful servant,” I want you to say those words with pride, because I chose to please you every day of my life.

Part 2: So God loves the world?

Part 2: So God loves the world?

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son

Could I give up my one and only son?

If an adoption agency came to me and asked if they could take Jude from me and give him a different  home. I would kindly rebuke them in a very respectful and spiritual way…yeah right! But in this new home, they would guarantee a great environment where he would get an incredible education and top notch training. He would also be given all the resources in the world and that he would become famous, more famous than anyone in the world.  As he grows up and reaches the pinnacle of his fame he will be murdered and his life cut short. But because of his death and his many discoveries he will save billions of people from a life threaten virus that will destroy the whole world.

My second reaction, ah no thank you, crazy adoption agency! Get another guinea pig and stop watching the Si-Fi channel.

Can you image that being your choice? You would have to completely sever yourself from any and all selfishness. Selfish people don’t give up anything let alone their greatest treasures. How much worry and anxiety would you be riddled with? Let’s look at the pros and cons of this situation. Pro, my son becomes famous. That’s kind of cool! Con, someone else is raising him and I miss out on all of our quality time.  Big time bummer. Pro, he saves the world. Once again very cool. Con, he is murdered.  I don’t think my human brain and emotions could handle this type of colossal decision.  I can’t even get my selfishness out of the way to even weight those pros and cons. That is why God had to make this decision for us.

Think about this, God knew everything that was going to happen to Jesus and he still made that unselfish decision to send his only son to save the world from that awful destroying virus, sin. He knew about the persecution and the hate his son would receive. He saw the crown of thorns pierce his forehead and the cat of nine tails rip the skin off of his back. He felt everything before he did and God sent his son anyway.

so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16

Do you still question if God still loves the world? He gave up his most treasured possession for you and me so that none of us would ever perish, but would be with him for all eternity. Because of Jesus we all have been adopted into the family we are all His children. He loves us all the same. And to think he would send his ONLY son all over again even if it was just to save one person from perishing.  I can’t wait to spend eternity with him!

God loves the world more than we could ever comprehend.


So God loves the World?

One of my New Year’s resolutions was to start to blog. It’s taken 24 days and being on a fast to get me to do my first blog, (don’t judge me) but never the less I am doing it.

Part 1: So God loves the world?

Have you ever questioned God how much He loves the world? I think we all have at one time in our lives; you know when something bad happens to a good person (unless you are perfect then you can stop reading this blog). By just watching the local news for five minutes you soon realize we live in a crazy evil world where bad things are happening every second. So how much does God love the world? This question drew me to meditate on one of the most famous scriptures in the Bible, John 3:16.

This scripture is so famous that most people, Christian or not, can quote it. We even see this scripture during football games as people hold up signs with John 3:16 on them. Tim Tebow would write it on his eye black (had to fit a Tim Tebow reference in somewhere) for the entire college football world to see. But do we really take time and understand the importance and sacrifice of this scripture?

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. John 3:16

Let’s dive into the first part of that scripture, For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son.

I have a one and only son, his name is Jude. He is getting ready to turn eight months old in a few days. It has been an incredible journey, so far, in raising him. Of course there have been challenges and a lot less sleep, but through all of that I have come to understand the much deeper love that God has for his children.

Dawn and I have to do everything for him. Feed him, change his smelly diapers, his clothes, put him to sleep (teething has raised the degree of difficulty on this one, can I get an AMEN from the parents). Jude would not survive if we left him alone to raise himself. There is nothing Jude can do for me, nothing. But even though he can’t do anything for me I am deeply in love with this little boy.

Why do I love him so much?

Because he is mine. Plain and simple he is part of me and all I want from my son, Jude, is for him to want me. Jude is too young to tell me that he loves me, but I can feel his love when I snuggle him (when he lets me). When he reaches his arms out for me to pick him up; he chooses to come to me wrapping his little arms tightly around my neck. That fills me with so much unexplainable joy and love for him in return. I could never fathom loving someone so much and expecting so little in return.

There is nothing we can do for God. Nothing.

He has everything he wants at the tip of His finger. He is God. The great I am, Yahweh Jireh, the Lord almighty, King of all Kings, the heavy weight Champion of the world. He can do all things and has knowledge of everything everywhere past, present and future.  There is nothing you can do for God, except to love Him back. It’s our choice to reach our arms out and go to Him. There is nothing we can do that will make God love us anymore or any less than he does right now. We are His. Plain and simple we are His masterpiece, His pride and joy, we are part of Him and when we chose to show Him love this is the greatest joy we can give God our Father.

To be continued…

Book review: “The Book of Lester”

“Are we here to entertain Christians or to get people saved?” was Andrew’s reply as the publishing editor continued to explain the reasons why they could and would not publish his book.  “It’s too risky.  This book is five years ahead of the market, it has too many drug and alcohol references, and we just can’t risk losing money on this.  My Midwest, middle aged, readers will not buy this book.  Come back with an Amish story and we’ll consider it.”

Andrew left his third 15 minute interview with hopes crushed.  He had come in with such enthusiasm and faith.  “God, you called me to write this book, now, to only be rejected by every publishing company I presented my story to.”  Anger rushed through Andrew’s veins as he headed to his hotel in Denver, CO.  He got to his hotel room, sat on the edge of the bed, and pouted for about 20 minutes.  Then he heard the voice of God say, “are you finished?”  With passion in his heart and determination in his being, “yes, Lord.  But why is this happening?  Why did you want me to write this book if every publisher I go to rejects it and rejects me?”  God answered, “Because I wanted you to experience rejection; the rejection that my people feel every day.  The rejection people have felt when they put themselves out there and people just turn them away.  This is how each person will feel when they enter into your church; hurt, wounded, desperate, and rejected.  I want you to know how they feel because that is the only way you will be able to reach them, the way I reached you with compassion and acceptance.”

And this is how the story began.  God called us to self publish because He wanted us to take the risk that no one else wanted to take.  We are risk takers, faith walkers, hand to the plow kind of people and we’re not going to stop now.  God has written this book through Andrew and He doesn’t want to change one thing about it.  It’s too “radical” for the Christians and too “Jesus” for the secular.  Well, it’s exactly what God wants in order to show that He is the one who will receive all of the glory for the success of this book, The Book of Lester.

I know what you’re thinking, “She is his wife, and she is supposed to think great things about his book.”  Yes and no.  I believe in my husband and know he is gifted and can write a good book.  I also know that he hears the voice of God and walks his faith each day as he rises and spends countless hours praying and studying God’s word.  I know that this book was inspired and written by God Himself.  It’s too good not to be.  ;)

Now to my review:  This is a fictional, suspense, dark comedy, love story with a fun twist.  I was fully engaged within the first couple of chapters with the witty humor and realistic dialogue of two buddies, an annoying co-worker, and a stickler boss.  It opens up with a typical Monday morning, friendship, and the daily grind.  It pleasantly leads into a challenging personal self reflection, love, and real life struggles like depression, anger, suicide, and addiction.  I loved how Andrew developed each character so that I could relate to and connect with each one on several different levels.  Not only did I laugh, cry, and get angry but I also felt joy, excitement, and passion for the characters.  I was kept in suspense to the very end.  I was shocked yet satisfied as I read the last page.  It left me wanting more.  I can see the purpose of this book would be to give it to a friend that might be struggling with questions in their heart about life and purpose.  It will definitely evoke great conversation and make you think about what’s really going on around you.  I would even give it to a Midwest, middle aged, reader because I know this book is for everyone!

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God Bless & Love!

-Dawn Thurber

The wife of Andrew Thurber, Enthusiastic & Riveting New Author –


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Listen to the 3 Part Series here.

Part 1

Part 2

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God Slave

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